Proof Of Afterlife By Birth
The Second Proof (Circa 1970)
It was winter of 1970, about three months after the first proof. In discovering the first proof, Proof Of Afterlife By Awareness, I learned how an increase of complexity in the environment lead to proof of afterlife. When you become aware of more, as it did during the party in proof one, the result is an increase in confusion. Confusion is brought about by awareness opening to absorb more information than it normally does. It was then I realized that awareness doesn't diminish at death, it grows.
This second proof, Proof Of Afterlife By Birth, follows directly from that growing awareness concept. From that experience I learned that there is more going on in life than we are aware of. Most of what happens in life gets absorbed into memory unnoticed. It follows logically that life's unnoticed information would be realized at some time. That time is afterlife. That's when my attention turned to the geometry of birth. Could it be that birth and death are exactly the same event?
I was raised in a traditional American catholic family. We were taught about Jesus and the kingdom of heaven. I wasn't devotedly religious, but I did believe in the basic teachings of heaven. My understanding was if you led a good life you would be rewarded by going to heaven when you die. I believed was there was a single, all encompassing God that oversaw everything. I believed Heaven was a magnificent place. This is what I was taught from an early age.
These teachings came from catechism. Catechism is weekly classes that I attended as a member of the Catholic faith. It was in catechism that I formed my basic afterlife belief system. The belief was that God is all seeing, all knowing, and all around us at all times. It included belief that we ascend to heaven at the end of life. Over all of this was a belief that God is good. Going to heaven was a reward for living a good life.
My belief system as a young man (about 10 years old) was severely tested. As I became a teenager, I began to doubt the "God is good" part. Like so many American families in the 1960's, mine was ravaged by alcoholism. My father was intelligent, hard working, devote, but addicted to drinking. The drinking was bad by the time I was five years old. Alcoholism gets worse over decades. The abuse suffered by family members of alcoholics is severe. I was no different. As the disease progressed the abuse by my father got worse.
I was conflicted. On the one hand I had been taught that God is all seeing, all knowing, and watching over us. On the other hand I saw what appeared to be an intelligent man willfully taking a substance that caused him to abuse his family. I my young mind I struggled to find God's plan in all of this. When you witness someone destroy everything that is good in life by insisting on drinking every day, it wears you down emotionally. Finally, at sixteen, I rejected the possibly be a God.
The faith that was so strong as a child, eroded into atheism as a teenager. Finally, at the age of 16, it collapsed completely. No God can possibly condone this, I reasoned. The only conclusion I could draw, based on the facts at hand, was there were no God, no heaven, and no afterlife.
Then quite unexpectedly due to these psychedelic drugs a phoenix arose from the ashes. My faith returned. It returned because I had physical proof the afterlife exists. I wasn't looking for it, but I saw it. While high I experienced my mind expanding. Before seeing this I thought life was all there is. Through experimentation I found out differently. When you are sitting in a room, listening to two conversions simultaneously, and the environment is hopelessly confusing then you know. I knew, for the first time, we go through life in an unopened state. When I caught a glimpse of the open state, albeit briefly, I knew I are sitting on a powder keg. Life, at any moment, can explode upwards. The mind is not ever going down. It is going up.
In the days and weeks after the party I began to think about how opening the mind pertains to the beginning of life. At birth there is an opening of life too. Could it be that the beginning of life (conception) and the end of life (death) are exactly the same event? Mathemtically it makes sense. These two events, conception and death, are an opening of life. Both take place in an instant. The only difference is our orientation. We look back at conception. We look forward to death. Other than orientation, they are the same event.
Here is the second proof, Proof Of Afterlife By Birth.